I'm alone at the church now, it's about 7 pm. Tonight's ministry is at East Ave, and only 4 people can go each week. I get a little lonely sometimes being here alone in the evenings, but tonight it's actually really nice. This is good time for me to reflect and refocus.
It's been a week since I last wrote, there have been some funny things that happened! I was helping to cook lunch last sunday, and of course, while I stirred I was humming. Well, apparently there's a Filipino superstition that if a woman sings while she cooks, she will never get married. Ha! Then again, only the next day I was eating lunch with the other teachers. As per usual, I was the last one to finish. (If you know me well, you know I'm an extremely slow eater.) So Ate Monz informs me that I have to turn my plate! "Why?" I asked. "Because, if you're the last person eating at the table, you will never get married! But there's a way to reverse it! You must turn your plate around." She's joking of course, but I play along. I can't tell you how many times I've spinned my plate this past week haha. It seems I'm hopeless!
A couple of the guys are helping me put a poem of mine to music. It's something I wrote five years ago. Since I never intended it to be a song, it's not structured to be one at all, so it's been a little bit of a challenge. I mean, I didn't even have a tune in mind! But we sit down, and one of them plays different chords and patterns, and I try and sing along. It's really different. At one time I could say, "I'm a writer, not a musician." But now I can't claim either! I've tried writing again but it just won't flow. Anyway, the song writing process proves to be interesting. I've also picked up the guitar again, which feels good. This is a great place to improve my playing and learn some songs, since so many people here at the church are musically gifted.
Today Martha and I went to the mall to buy an aerobics DVD :) last week after prayer meeting, Mona and I were chatting about exercise, and came up with the idea to do a girls only aerobics group! So we start tomorrow! Martha and I picked a Latin dance disc haha. I've previewed it already, and I think it's going to be really fun!! I'm super excited.
I have so many questions about my future. I really don't know what's next, and I struggle with having the faith that my tomorrows are already known by God, and I need only trust that He's going to get me there safe and well. But right now, I'm sitting in front of a fan, typing at the round table in the church, listening to cars and motorcycles drive by, occasionally honking their horns. Except for Argie's brother and Jonell, I'm the only one here. It's quiet inside, and I just feel a perfect peace. In this moment, I have no confusion. None, whatsoever. Yes, I still have questions. But right now, I know that I'm where I'm meant to be. And I feel right.
